Well it's three days before the showing of EXPOSED and now I see what every producer and director and actor feels before a premiere. Questions they ask of themselves. Is it good enough? Does it have what it takes to be a real great film? We don't know. All I can tell you is that we worked day and night to make it the best possible movie for the money. I looked at alot of movies in my life and I thought to myself, Wow! There are production companies that spend millions, and at the end of the day when we go and spend our 10 bucks we come out of the movie theatre saying, "God what kind of dumb movie was that!" It's kind of what goes on in my head.
I was at the store the other day and this guy who always checks me out (groceries that is) asked me about my film, and I said that I was really nervous about it because when you put yourself out there you posture yourself for ridicule. Without a blink of an eye he said, and I'll never forget it, he said, "You gotta have a pair of big ones to do what you do." End of story. He also said, "Your mind has to be strong". I laughed and pointed at my head and said, "screwed up but strong". Yet he was right I think. I remember the time when I opened up my ballroom and I picked up my mom from the airport. She said the same thing. "Jack you got a big pair". Wow! That was my mom.
I guess I always took chances in my life. I had so many nice emails about the movie and the words that were used were; courage, fighter, brave, admiration, survivor, to name a few. Those words made me believe I was on the right track on this. This film documents a story that will long out live me. It's a story that Elaine Liner said to write a book about. Instead it became a video journal. Not only for the people watching, but for my children and their children, that when they see this movie they would be proud to say, "Wow! That was my dad or my grandad" or whatever.
This movie encapsulates a time in my life where in a blink of an eye everything changed. A phone call late at night, a love of your life disappears and you are left with questions and silence, and the only thing that keeps you going is love. I made a dedication to this movie for Ms. Jodi Forrer. Without her will to live this story could have never been told.
I have survived lost loves and loss of friends. EXPOSED depicts that time of my life where the momentum changed and a new beginning started.
So I ask you to come and see this film and enjoy all the work that went into it. It is a once in a lifetime event and who knows when this will happen again. Thank you and we will see you there!!
